Just had an interview at Zellers, and I got offered a job, it's only seasonal, but man feels good to have something again. And now I can look forward to moving into my apartment again. Looking at the dreadful bus routs makes me miss my car. I don't know if I'll ever see my car again. My dad is working on it, but not sure if it would make the long trip back down here. Have to wait and see.


I have been working on some art pieces. I'll have to upload them here once I'm done. at the moment I'm working on this one massive ragnarok online chibi war of chars for somebody. Right now I have about half of them done in pencil. Lots of work, but so far they are fun to draw. I haven't even been playing Ro lately. I haven't really touched it in a week. I might go play some today, I have this itch to go stab things lol.

I'm getting an itch to make another doll or something again, though it will have to wait since my sewing machine is still in storage along with everything else. About 3 more weeks until I can get things out of that storage until. wooo

Now I think going to go rest, and try and get rid of this headache that is bugging me.

Life feels like a mess right now for me. Just when I think everything is starting to go right I get kicked in the ass. I had a job, though it semi sucked, and was getting an apartment. Just this past monday I got called into the HR office and was told "Things aren't working out" I was like "What?" I wasn't old I was doing anything wrong, I was getting all my work done and was running out of things to do. I asked why and I was told because I was seen with the web browser open. wtf, I wasn't told I wasn't supposed to go on the net at all, all it was was CBC news, usually opened when I just get it on from break and forgetting to close it and going back to work. True there where a few other times something was bugging me to remember so I'd look it up, but not often and that would be like less than a minute. I have seen others online as well. Not like I was playing games or freaking chatting. So without any warnings or anything I was just let go. Kind of upsetting, cuz here I'm thinking I'm doing well and I get this kick in the ass. What a confidence killer that is too, making me feel like shit and thinking I can't get anything right, and I'm totally in the wrong. I couldn't even talk to the guy about it. I'm wondering if there was other reasons they let me go. Hell I didn't even really have an interview and I was hired on the spot. Half the time I wasn't told anything, and I felt like when i was asking people what to do I was disturbing them. The floors in that place was disgusting too, I don't think the floors around the cubicles had been washed in over 5 years. White tiles there black in some places... ewww.


I just feel stuck. And I'm hating this part of my life at the moment. I know it will pass, I'm just feeling depressed and stressed at the moment. So right now I'm trying to find another job. Anything. Though I don't have much experience in retail or customer service, so I get over looked a lot on those kinds of jobs. But I guess all I can do is try. I don't want to give up on the apartment, I really need my own space, I'm sick of living out of a suitcase.

On a brighter note, I have been getting some artwork done. I have also a small list of people from Ragnarok Online asking for commissions. That makes me happy because I know people do like my art even though I don't get to many comments.

I have been without my macbook for 2 weeks. I missed it so much. One morning my boyfriend went to turn on my mac and it didn't boot. After playing around a bit and pulling out the battery, I got it to boot, but I had no video. Wahh. From looking online I found that the NDIVIA Vid had has a manufacture defect in it. I was happy to find out though that there was a place in town here that services macs. So i didn't have to send it away anywhere.
So here I was waiting for 2 weeks missing my macbook and cursing my PC. My PC is so slow I hate watching any anime on it. I can really have anything running on it or it will lag the video. lol

Anyway it's been 2 weeks now and I finally got my macbook back. I walked out of the store hugging my computer. I was so glad I have apple care as well. I didn't have to pay a thing to get my mac fixed. I also got a new power cord cuz mine was coming apart at the plug that connects to the computer.

So now I can get back to my artwork. Yay!

Right now I'm still living at my in-laws. No luck finding a job yet. Been a bit depressed about that. My Bf and I had looked at a few apartments, but had to put that on hold a bit. With me not having a job yet we can't afford rent for an apartment. Maybe for November.

I finally got my web page up. It's a small online portfolio of my artwork and designs.
i actually had fun doing this, i learned a few new things as well.

There may still be spelling errors and mistakes on it yet, my regular proofreader is away right now. So i hope i don't have too many mistakes.

Let me know what you think.


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Wah, been so busy with school and homework, I haven't had much time for much else yet.
I had net problems earlier this week, i was lagging when ever i went into Ro, and ventrilo. Managed to figure out the problem though. Turned out it was my router. Left it unplugged for a while and when I turned it back on and plugged things in it was working fine again.

I got my first loading screen on Ragnarok Online. I had submitted my puppet master and it got up as a loading screen on wednesday. I think I spent about 30 minutes going through the portals just to try and see it. lol. That made my day.

Well that is all for now.